Clint Eastwood is on the tv (good, bad, ugly, i think) and I'm waiting for Erik to come get me so I can stay the night in the idyllic wonderland that is Mill Valley. Whee!
No, really, I enjoy it. He has cable.
Jr is being a butt, but not actually hitting me as much. He is however going through an "I don't care" phase at the moment and well, I don't care. He also does NOT want me sitting anywhere near his dad, nor touching, talking to or, making eye contact with said dad.
I don't care.
I stayed last night. We spent sometime trying to get the living room to look like a livingroom and not a storage unit. Boxes, boxes everywhere! He got a couch and a loveseat and three chairs in the livingroom, now. The tv is set up in the corner with the telvision there, ready for video game/tv/dvd/vhs enjoyment and he also has a projection tv type thingy that shows whatever you are watching on the wall, like huge. Not theatre huge, but watching a movie in school huge.
It's totally cool. We watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind which I think I may have been too tired to enjoy. Either that or it sucked.
Jim Carrey looked exceptionally hot with the stubble, IMO.
I didn't especially get the time flow with the flashbacks and the flash forwards.
I think it was a device of the maker dude (director? writer? whatever) that her hair changed color all the time so you knew where you were.
I just got confused and almost spilled my beer because I nodded off.
Sigh.
Well, he just called me and said he's on the way so I will wrap this up.
Bye, friends.

Lisa "Left Eye" Lopes, Vagina and Face Smacking

Today is the 3rd anniversary of the death of Lisa "Left Eye" Lopes.

I really liked this girl group, even though the genre is not my favorite.

They were all about safe sex, sex education and sexual empowerment of women.

I like those things.

Jr said something to me the other day about pussy.
I just had to ask, "what is pussy?" cuz I'm nosy like that.
He got up and pointed at his crotchal area and said "it's here but on a girl."
"Ok, good job. Do you know what the real word for it is?"
"No, what is it?"
"Vagina. Boys have a penis and girls have a vagina."
"Oh. Cool."
Then we played more video games.

I also slapped his face on Sunday.
I felt horrible about it.
You know, though, the boy has punched me so many times, and a couple of times in the face.
He was being wretched about the video game we were playing and I said, "ok, you play and I will read my book".
I was sitting on the couch reading and when he got killed in the game he came over and grabbed my book and tried to pull it out of my hand. My other hand just got a life of its own and smacky smack. There it was.
I said, "No. This isn't going to happen. You can't treat me this way. I'm sorry but I won't take it anymore."
He ran out of the room and when he came back he had a red mark on his cheek and was smacking it more himself, which made me laugh inwardly and also made me feel worse, because I remember doing the same thing to myself when big bro smacked me once or twice.
We had such a great day on Saturday when I babysat him. He was teasing me, "JJ is my babysitter" in singsong. It felt good when he sang that. Like maybe there was a way to define our relationship.
Friends? hmm
Dad's girlfriend? yeah, maybe, sure. Whatever.
Some woman who just showed up one day and everyone expects me to like her, but why the hell should I?

I'm not the evil stepmom. I'm not trying to take Daddy away.
Just imagine, boy. Twice the love. Imagine Daddy more calm and happy because he's getting laid regularly. Yeah. It could work in your favor.

We have had hug sessions. He has sat on my lap in the car and while watching tv and playing video games.
Usually when he comes at me screaming and swinging now, I grab him and hug him and say "aww, jr! You like me so much you can't stay away from me, can you? So nice to see you! How was your day? Did you sleep well? Did you have any dreams?" shit like that. It seems to work better than trying to ignore him or pushing him away.

I like to play, and I like to play rough. I just don't like to be surprised by it.

See that little statue of David? It's a Santini and it's going to sell for multi dollars on eVilBay.

Nice penis, Dave.

Just Because

Date: Fri, 21 Apr 2006 13:51:43 -0600
Subject: urgent reply
From: "greg11bill"


Dear Acquaintance,
Permit me to introduce myself, I am Greg Bill, head of Mortgage
department, Royal Bank of Scotland, Liverpool Commercial Banking Centre,
1st Floor 1 Exchange Flags Liverpool L2 3XN . Only recently I discovered
that one account belonging to Ms. Fiona Watts now DECEASED has remained
dormant for the past two years, after intensive investigations, I found
out that Late Ms. Fiona Watts died in a ghastly auto accident in June,
2003.
At this point I am contacting you concerning a business acquaintance
that necessitates you to act as a new beneficiary cum next of kin to the
said dormant account as I hope to give you more technical details on
how I think we should transfer the funds into your nominated
offshore/residence account. Please I need you to help me with your personal
details
such as Full names, home/office address, phone and fax numbers
respectively, you can also reach me via my private email
gre11bill@yahoo.com or my direct line 011447040115841 should you be interested.
PLEASE, YOU MAY ALSO IGNORE THIS LETTER AND RESPECT MY TRUST IN YOU BY
NOT EXPOSING THIS TRANSACTION, SHOULD YOU NOT BE INTERESTED.
Sincerely,
Greg Bill

(ed. note) Just because he told me not to expose him.
Feel free to sign him up for gay porn sites.

Cartoon sun found in a notebook that just ran out of blank pages yesterday. Dated July 21, 2005.

Self-Portrait Thursday

My shirt. The whole thing reads Spawn Til You Die. Done by an artist name of
Ray Troll. It's an Alaska thing.

Various Photos

This is the place in MV where he will be renting an apartment

Jr up the monkeybars

He got accepted for an apartment in Mill Valley. Should be in by the end of the week. There are all sort of details about school and daycare, etc.

We had a great weekend, went to dinner in North Beach with his family which was surprisingly nice. No fighting, food throwing or other general mayhem to report.
I have to admit I was a little disappointed. I was hoping for at least a good food fight but even the Sicilian was in a lucid mood.
I ate a calamari. If you don't know what that is, look it up. It was looking up at me. I thought it would be all chewy like fried calamari but it was wonderfully tender and very tasty. I also ate an oyster, which I hate, but I washed it down with a $7.50 glass of wine and smiled.
I got some photos but left my chip at home so they won't get uploaded until tomorrow at the earliest.

See ya.

second one

found this in my camera today.

Breakfast Friday Morning

It was a really great orange with that kind of skin that isn't too tight. Very tasty, almost a large tangerine. Only two seeds in the whole thing.

The Lunch of the Beast

The best part is it was split pea soup.

I did it

I wrote a guide for evilbay asked my boss if she thought it was ok and then submitted it. EEP!!

you can click here to read it and actively judge it even! (be gentle, it's my first time)

Yes, I will get compensated for my time for writing it.

Bos suggested that I try to write one because of my "writing skills" and "expertise" (her words!). At first I felt sort of intimidated by the thought of it but then I read a few that other people had written and they were mostly crap, so I figured, what the hey, I can do at least that well.

About an hour later I had done it.

That's why you got the crap post yesterday, I was busy composing my masterpiece, hehe.

My Station >

The following artists and songs were just played on your LAUNCHcast station.

The Misfits
Earth A.D.

Animotion
Obsession

Fear
I Believe I'll Have Another Beer

The Wallflowers
One Headlight

Beastie Boys
You Catch A Bad One

The Vibrators
Judy Says (Knock You In The Head)

Squeeze
Someone Else's Bell

Buzzcocks
I Don't Mind

Tenacious D
Wonderboy

The Offspring
Special Delivery

Half Japanese
Sleep Talk

Operation Ivy
Gonna Find You

The Stooges
Little Doll

Minor Threat
Screaming At A Wall

Frank Sinatra
Fly Me To The Moon (In Other Words)

The Dictators
Faster And Louder (Live)

The Strokes
Heart In A Cage (Radio Edit)

Flipper
Someday

System Of A Down
Science

SPT

It's self-portrait Thursday and I don't have a self-portrait. dang. I meant to make one all day and just didn't get to it.
So I whipped up this really crappy cartoon in the crappy paint program that is in this crappy computer that I love with all my heart (can you believe how long I have been using this $5 computer? (Crackheads are good for something, I bought this thing off of one about 2 years ago)).

It's a Boy!

Random Thoughts

It's late and I just got home.

He reminds me of someone I knew a long time ago. Someone I really liked and was very sorry to lose.

If this is another chance to...
Better get it...
If only things had...
If I could have...
Why didn't I...
I should have said...

My head is full of sentences I can't finish. Things I can't bear to say aloud.

I'm very happy right now. I feel good.
It scares me.

I've been in this city for six years. I love it here, always have.
I'm almost forty years old. I am resigned to the fact that I will probably never own a house, at least not in the city.

I wish I could go back in time.
Back to the mid 90's and change just one day.
Just one hour of one day.
Just one word of one sentence.
I shoulda kicked that bitch in the ass and told her to never come back to my house.

I know that makes no sense to anyone but me.

My mind is going a million miles a second and it's too late to take a tylenolpm.

I think I will be up late tonight.

This just cracks me up. The look on the guys face in the last couple of frames is wonderous.

I don't know who it is or I would give credit. If you know, clue me, please.
found it.explosm.(a link to the archives)
I didn't find the ones I looked at as funny as that one, but I'm still gonna look at them all.